This was written this morning when we had to sit in 1st period for 4 hours. This was how I felt this morning before reading my baby's blog. The one from last night will be uploaded later on today. Here you go!
------------------------------------------------------------------I've slept on my issue and now I'm sleepy. I'm calmer than I was yesterday but I'm still very upset. Like really, how would you feel if your girl told you that she met another girl on the chatline and now the bitch is growing feelings for her? You would not be a happy camper about that at all. I love my girl so much but she made me so fucking mad last night it was ridiculous. Like I wasn't mad that some girl wants her, hell a lot of girls do, but it's the fact that she was on a chatline "looking for a friend". Do you not realize how that sounds when our relationship was started on a website called Myspace? Do you not realize that we basically met for a sexual reason on that same website? So can you see what my first thoughts may been to what she told meI can't bear to think of my girl having any other girl besides myself. She is mine and I love her dearly but this girl is pushing my buttons. This means to me that she doesn't care if I'm with her or not, she wants my girl and may not give up her hopeless dream og having her to herself. This girl must think that she can have her without me knowing, she must be crazy. I knew my girl was joining different websites but I never thought that it would come to this. I never thought she would go on them to "meet other people". And not only that but give those hoes her number so they could talk more privately. This is really killing me inside. It hurts so much to know my girl is looking for other people to take up the time that I can't give her. The question that plays over and over in the mind is what could she have been talking to this bitch about that's got her catching feelings like that? What in the hell could have been said that would do this to me? Could she be talking to her the way she talks to me, the way that always makes me hot and causes me to cross my legs together? What could it be?!?! I'm stressing myself out trying to to think through this. I can't take this right now, it hurts too bad. I just need her to either let this bitch go or let me go, because this is not going to work for me if she keeps her around. I don't want to lose my baby because of anyone or anything. Somethings gotta give!!!!
Forever Me,
Lady Xstacy!
1 comment:
now u kno ur not goin no wur.lol. i like i've said a bagillion types i'm very sorry. i shoudlnt hav let it gotten that far. and trust me we had NO intimite convos. it was very innocent and you have ta understand that i get very very lonely and i be needn someone ta talk to. some1 ta share ideas wit and stuff like that. but i had really learnd form my mistakes and i will never let this happen again even if i had ta stay lonely for my duration in memphis til i gt to u in cleveland. im sorry i hurt u baby
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