I Jus Dnt Kno

I'm happy and sad right now. Moma knows that I'm still with my girl and that is why I can't get my license to drive right now. She knows that I may be at her her house every chance I get...now she didn't just come out and say it, but I know she was thinking it when she said "You're not ready for it yet." Why can't she believe that Keda is the best for me, no man can do for me like she can. No guy can make me as happy as she does whenever we talk. Why can't she understand that my love is only hers. She will never understand that I'M ENGAGED TO HER, and my heart is only for her and will only be hers. I'll soon be wearing the ring of my girl, I'll be married to her, and I'll bear her children. The thought of those beautiful brown eyed babies made just for us is exciting. I want nothing more than to be with her and to share the life we've planned out together. I can think of nothing better....though sometimes I am concerned about this. What if this is not going to work the way we planned? What if I can't give her the kids she want because of this? because of the troubles and problems we've both caused. I don't think what I should think. Maybe I should take a few days and isolate myself away from the world to think. I guess that that would best for me. I don't want to hurt anyone, especially my baby Keda. I just don't know.